I’ve been home for a little less than a week.
My life has switched from teaching in the bateyes and painting murals in mountain villages to picking my niece up from school and picking Legos up from my nephew’s toy room.
In another week I’ll be back in New York and preparing for another school year.
A mentor from high school used to tell me, “wherever you are, be all there.”
Ive kept that close to my heart for years. But it means more to me now than ever before.
I was in DR for one month. I was all there.
I was in Colombia for two weeks. I was all there.
I will be in Indiana for two weeks. I’m all here.
I will be in New York for life. I’ll be all there.
It took me years to learn to be content in my given situation. To not wish for home, or travel, or routine, or variety, or whatever I don’t currently have.
I practiced contentment this summer.
There were moments of angst. Moments of discomfort. Moments of frustration. Moments of homesickness.
But I embraced those moments, leaning into them, and learning from them.
I realized that whatever I was experiencing was temporary. I realized that my home would be there, waiting for me, and I would be there soon enough. I realized that I might not ever have the opportunity that is in front of me again.
That helped me to be all there.
And yet, while I was all there, and while I am all here, those kids are still where they are.
They are still hungry.
They are still thirsty.
They are still without clothes, shoes, and basic necessities.
I am all here, in order to be fully present in my life.
But they are all there, without the option to go elsewhere.
I’m not sure what to do about that.
There is need everywhere. And you can’t be everywhere.
I feel like I’m living where I was called to live, doing what I was called to do, loving where I was called to love.
I have to think that that’s enough. That being fully present in everyday life is what my world needs. And that by moving towards wholeness in my own spirit will bring wholeness to wherever I am.
So that’s it. That’s the end of my blogging life.
I hope that we can be fully present. Together. Hopefully face-to-face, over a strong cup of coffee.